Purpose

[BlackShadow]

well i'm thinking this one at the top of my head,so please don't say it sucks.


What's my purpose here on Earth?
Is it to live?
Is it to die?

Did I forfill it already?
If I did
why am i still here?
Does everything happen
for a reason?

How much time do i have to suffer
before forfilling my purpose?

So much questions i ask.
Yet no one has the answers to.
I want to know but....
i will never know will I?

Maybe I am to die not
forfilling it.
Or maybe i did forfill it already.

Was i to suffer just to save a life of another suffering one?!

I'm just a waist of life aren't I?
I think i know now...
i was just to save another
and suffer the pain and pressure.

I'm so mad at my self.
I just might waist this only life I have.
To die pianful death maybe.
Or maybe not.

oh
->" Dear God,
When I'm done forfilling my purpose here,
Please take me away from this cruel world." <-from my first diary.